Monday, May 31, 2010

Life : 3rd Quarter



July,
is here
babies are born
you end up
supporting
the other lives
which are part of yours
the good part
&
for the
first time
very first time
you think of chucking
chucking the wrong way
for that new life
to be a role model to it
&
realize
there is whole new thing
new thing
called responsibilities
for it
you dig harder
deeper
deeper into dirt
you get your slate dirtier
&
Dirtier
for that close night
with your wife
for that tab
on your child's head
for that feeling of
being loved
&
life goes on
&
on
&
then
time comes
come's the time
we realize
our slate is no more clean
we know it
but world doesn't
why should it?
but it wants too
things start to go wrong
skeletons
long lost
start falling out
people learn
&
then
life is on to you
your past is in open
naked and facing you
your dirty secret is out
&
your loved ones
are last to know
&
Shocked
they deny
&
live in denial
&
then
just lose trust
trust in you
for them
you turn
from Angel to demon
in flash of a news
aptly titled
The Breaking News
breaking all your bonds
by now
your son knows
for you are
at end
of the
Third Quarter
And he is in his second

Monday, May 24, 2010

Life : Second Quarter


It's already March
One quarter of life is over
World is cunning
ruthless
we realize
as college goes going
our friends
our most fierce competitors
are all the same
there's no difference
who's who
&
who's not who
all are of same caliber
it's either I
either you
or some body else
so why not me
for this Question
for the want
of that person
to be me
for not want
of things to go
Wrong
we do Wrong
to win
we do wrong
we win
we get loved
& love happens
we are out of college
doing jobs
working
for someone else
to be on
good side
of bad side
so that we earn
earn good money
so that we can marry
we get married
&
then
responsibilities happen
we are through
half the life
July, is here...

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Life:First Quarter.


Life, one wonder's
when you are born
life starts
its your life
with you
having no say
over it
at start
everyone has a
clean slate
then what happen's
We grow up
we are small
like the new year
Every year
like January,
Loved by all
celebrated by all
hopes, dreams
pinned on us
but no pressure
then we
start growing up
going school
we learn things
we learn to disobey
we learn to hate
we learn success
&
failure
we learn prize
prize that comes with
success
&
price
price that we pay for
failure
Love it was
to be loved
but no more
we are to succeed
to be loved
to celebrate
we need to win
it's not the same
not the same anymore
it's already March

Life

Life, one wonder's
when you are born
life starts
its your life
with you
having no say
over it
at start
everyone has a
clean slate
then what happen's
We grow up
we are small
like the new year
Every year
like January,
Loved by all
celebrated by all
hopes, dreams
pinned on us
but no pressure
then we
start growing up
going school
we learn things
we learn to disobey
we learn to hate
we learn success
&
failure
we learn prize
prize that comes with
success
&
price
price that we pay for
failure
Love it was
to be loved
but no more
we are to succeed
to be loved
to celebrate
we need to win
it's not the same
not the same anymore
It's already March
One quarter of life is over
World is cunning
ruthless
we realize
as college goes going
our friends
our most fierce competitors
are all the same
there's no difference
who's who
&
who's not who
all are of same caliber
it's either I
either you
or some body else
so why not me
for this Question
for the want
of that person
to be me
for not want
of things to go
Wrong
we do Wrong
to win
we do wrong
we win
we get loved
& love happens
we are out of college
doing jobs
working
for someone else
to be on
good side
of bad side
so that we earn
earn good money
so that we can marry
we get married
&
then
responsibilities happen
we are through
half the life

July,
is here
babies are born
you end up
supporting
the other lives
which are part of yours
the good part
&
for the
first time
very first time
you think of chucking
chucking the wrong way
for that new life
to be a role model to it
&
realize
there is whole new thing
new thing
called responsibilities
for it
you dig harder
deeper
deeper into dirt
you get your slate dirtier
&
Dirtier
for that close night
with your wife
for that tab
on your child's head
for that feeling of
being loved
&
life goes on
&
on
&
then
time comes
come's the time
we realize
our slate is no more clean
we know it
but world doesn't
why should it?
but it wants too
things start to go wrong
skeletons
long lost
start falling out
people learn
&
then
life is on to you
your past is in open
naked and facing you
your dirty secret is out
&
your loved ones
are last to know
&
Shocked
they deny
&
live in denial
&
then
just lose trust
trust in you
for them
you turn
from Angel to demon
in flash of a news
aptly titled
The Breaking News
breaking all your bonds
by now
your son knows
for you are
at end
of the
Third Quarter
And he is in his second
he knows
&
stays put
you know
why he is there
besides you
&
your wife
He is there
for he knows
you have to
get hands dirty
to be in your position
your wife
for she still loves you
she knows
why you did it all
Then you realize
the real realization happens
you dint need to get dirty
you dint need to earn that much
you dint need to succeed
you were always loved
by people whom you love
of whom you cared
&
then
guilt sets in
then starts philanthropy
then you understand
why one should give
give more
than take
its in the last Quarter
the last bits of your
life
&
for the first time
in your life
you are not
Lost
you dont feel
betrayal
but trusted
but finally
arrived
fulfilled
you retire
play with your
Grandchildren
Get back to life
the way
it should have been
the way you were born
having fun
all the way
the last January
your childhood,
but its December
you are old
&
sooner
than
latter
your year is going
to end
it will be time to go
you know i
you thank god
for it
the life you have had
what one need's
is
what one already has
in your own backyard
&
the forth Quarter
is over
One life has been
Lived
&
One life has
Ended
But Life in itself
has continued
people around
that life
still live on their's
giving rise to new
&
the great saga
continues
As we pass
the Quarters
we see things happening
as they used to
with us
the way we lived them
to our neighbors
to our teachers
to our parents
we see
our children do
so the saying goes
"The more things
change,
the more they
remain same"
Still we let them
happen
for its not in our hands
we are helpless
blinded by success
for its their life
&
it's them
who have to make it
the journey
is of their choice
as it continues.............








Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Beautiful Stranger

You are beautiful
you are beautiful
Stranger
but stranger to me
you say
you know me
Through the heart & bones
Through the eye's to mind
you know me
You are beautiful
but a stranger to me
You say
We had great times
Times Together
I Remember
Me
All alone
Left out
All alone
In cold
You are beautiful
You are beautiful
Stranger
Stranger to me
You say
We were two bodies
one soul
we had a first kiss
a first night
intimacy
All
I Remember
is me
not a care
or cared
rolling down
that street
to bottom
of my
heart
You are beautiful
you are beautiful
Stranger

Monday, May 3, 2010

One Piece of Advice?

Today, 3rd of May 2010 I had an interview, and with my record of cracking only 1 % of all the dishes that are served to me, I was bound to get some free advice, on build up to it, and did so. One of it was a good one: "Go with a right set of mind."

The right set of mind! What the hell is this "Right set of mind"? And answer was given in a very straight forward way, in positive frame of mind! Duh!

Positive frame of mind! What's that? :? There again; a Question mark on my face. And realizing it, this person says: Don't think any negative/bad things, think of good things, do good things and be happy all the time, say good things and good things will happen to you.

Okay! Good, that's quite possible: Auto-suggestion, quite possible, many have practiced it. Let's give it a try; sure nothing will get in my way.

Interview is on Monday, they need 2 certificates from my current employers! What! It includes NOC: No Objection Certificate; No objection that I give personal interview at other places! Yes, any organization will not have a problem with that.

I practice Positive set of mind and my boss gives me certificate; without any stamps: useless! Another boss who can give me stamp and sign, says: "How can I? I have not yet instructed on this by my boss!" Duh! You are a director of your college, okay! if you have a boss, but he does not decide whether your subordinates can attend a Personal Interview or not. Well, this sentence did not change his stance!

Anyway I got my stamps from another boss, and got it done. Next I learn, my interview schedule is 8:30 Am, yes in morning.

So I start my day. Interview schedule: 8:30 AM, yes you read it right, 8:30 in morning. So I wake up early, freshen up and start moving! Good the sun is out, cool breeze is on, I feel fresh, and tyre is flat. Hurray!

Fix that, in time and get going reach the first signal, and the beggar besides me decides to stop begging of sympathy and start off with a series of Sanskrit schlocks which sound more like expletives, next to my ear. Somehow I get out of there and it's time for the car in front to fail, and for no reason driver has some words for me! What the hell!

Somehow, I make it too other side of city and that too just in nick of time, and next I wait outside for 30 minutes. So much for speeding! As I go in, they start scrutiny of my certificates and sweetly tell me, those papers (Formerly Character Certificates) are useless, on short notice get it notarized!

There I sling my bag and me on my bike and off I go searching for notary, in my positive frame of mind, and I find one and he out rightly refuses me! Poor me! Then from 1 to next and next, I have gone through 5 when I end up at court and finally get one to give me a certificate. And am all out of money, then I learn about wrong parking because of wrong day, so I have to walk for about 30 minutes to find an ATM, take money, hire an auto-rickshaw, pay the cop, pick my bike and head back to interview venue and I reach just in nick of time for the panel to have lunch!

I am thankful to my stars that they had very quick lunch and I am in the hot chair in no time, and out of it in 10 minutes! :| 10 minutes! In which we had small chit chat, something about derivatives, sub-prime lending, something about my parents and something about sweet nothings!

I spent 7:00 Am to 3:00 Pm that is 8 hours of my day, INR 1000 (including petrol) that is 5% of my salary! For those 10 minutes! If I get the job, it was all worth it! But if not: Positive frame of mind cost me dear!

This post was written after hard days of work, a 1 hour sleep and after checking pocket so as to give a special treat to me and finding not a single penny in it. So much for the positive frame of mind!