Saturday, March 15, 2025

The Hurt

  Sharmili was a very introvert, shy person; and her name went with her personality. Had lived her life in almost isolation; few friends; but friends which she could bank on as life savers; school friends with strong bonds. As it was not possible to live without interacting at all; with people around her; with whom she was going to share 12+ years of her life; school life. However, with age and progression comes a time when you leave your comfort zone and end up at new shores. The college.   
 
 
  Everyone; has to restart their life in a way in college; then job; have to find new friends; one can't just live out days only studying. Have to interact. Sharmili; had less time now; only 4 years till end of graduation. First year; she learned names of her classmates; only to know students were to be assigned new classes at start of 2nd year; which was spent in knowing names of the new student again.


  The resets of life, the new shores new beginnings are quite guaranteed in the adult world, a job shift, a shift of location for job, even countries and beyond seven seas to different continents are all on the cards of faith or choices we make. And here is Sharmili still making friends or rather even acquaintances the first task of each year of existence! It becomes difficult if your bar is set lower than the world default; but it's what it is.

  And then comes the third year of college; she makes fast progress and makes bunch of friends. Goes on various trips and learns a lot about all of them; their birthdays; she becomes first to wish, wish all the best for small meaningless tests that others don't even know about. Set reminders for many to not miss landmarks. Sometimes her friends feel like they never ever mentioned the stuff she remembers; but she knows. 

 Only to be hurt; hurt deep enough to reset herself to forget all of it and go into a shell. To live it off solo! For she requested one thing for her friends to remember and believe her. For all her life none had, and it was a special day, but because it happened to be on same day as a day celebrated as fool's day; none believed her for it to be her true birthday. People just brushed it off as an elaborate prank; but this time she believed others would remember it and celebrate it with her. 

  It was not as if she had taken others for granted; and still drop explicitly that its her birthday tomorrow. The 1st of April, and still her friends and just people to-be henceforth, did no celebrations and even ridiculed her for even suggesting as such. The trust was lost, and so were friends; saddened she reclused herself never to mix again. 

  Its not like others did not try to make it up to her later that day or next day; but time had already come to pass; water under the bridge had flowed away.   
 
  Sometimes, small things in one's lives; may hold a lot more significance in others' lives. A slice of bread may not seem much to the Russian Queen who had cake each day during the famine, but held enough significance in the minds of commoners that they killed her and Czar and his family and her Monk Rasputin during rebellion. The analogy may seem extreme, but for Sharmili it may have been the last straw.  

Saath...


Sath hi chale thee kabhi...
Sangh hi chale thee kabhi...
Kab yun kis chal main phas gaya...
Khali kamyabiyo ke tale dhaye gaya...
Jis hath ke liye chala tha...
Jis sath ke liye chala tha...
Wo sath hi bhul aayan hun...

Bada aagye chala aayan hun...
Bada aagye cahla aayan hun...
Kuch rastein badal gayein hain...
Kuch waqt sa badal gayan hain...
Ya kuch main hi badal gayan hu...
Mud ke dekh rahan hun...
Par wo mod hain hi nahi kahin...

Saath hi chale thee kabhi...
Wo sath hi bhul aaya hu...
Wo sukun hi tha sath mere tere...
Jis aas main itna chala hu main... 
Wo wahi hain....
Tum kahi aur chal pahuchi...
Main kahin aur chala aayan hun...

Ab toh ye jahan alag hain...
Ab toh tera jahan alag hain...
Par Kehna tumhise hain...
Jab saath tha toh hamosh tha...
Ab shabdh hain toh kisse sunau...
Koi samajhne wala nahi hain...
Wo sukun chod aaya kahin main....

Saath hi chale thee kabhi...
Hathon main hath liye...
Kuch hum chakachond huin...
Kuch tum...
Aur yun kab rahein badli....
Ki hum loont na sake....
Ek kadam do kadam...  
Kadam dar kadam fasle badhtein gayein...

Faslein badhtein gayein....


Sunday, December 27, 2020

Crazy Thing Love!

This crazy thing;
No less than mind control;
I have lost functions;
Of my head;

All I Want is to;
        See you    Click you    Love You

All I want is to;
        Touch You    Kiss You    Feel You 

Things I need to do;
The responses I need to give;
My emotions are in turmoil;
Smiling away like a fool;

All I do is to;
        Go Crazy over you    Mushy Over You    Dazy over You

All I do is to;
        Do to Know You    To Woo You    To Love You

What ever it may be;
its all about you;
The ten's of things I think off;
all lead to you;

 All I want is to;
        Hold You    Cuddle You    Warm You
All I want is to;
        Fondle You    Caress You    Lift You

To be with you;
Even when not with you;
Even in your innocence;
I lose my innocence;

All I want is .....to be with Youuuuu......
    

Saturday, October 24, 2020

Come to me....

When the weather is bad;

I will come to you;

When the weather is good;

You come to me;

When I am happy;

feeling lucky;

I will share it with you;

When you are feeling blue;

tears in eyes;

seek me out;

When the weather is good;

clear blue skies;

just have fun;

When the weather is bad;

the skies are stormy;

lets share an umbrella together;

so come to me;

When the days are bright;

nights are right;

dance your way through life;

When the times are tough;

trying up your mind;

let lose some weight to my shoulders;

so come to me;

When the weather is bad;

I will come to you;

When the weather is good;

You come to me;

When there's good news from me;

you will be first to hear;

If there's bad news;

I will be there with you;

for you;

so come to me;

If there is something;

troubling you;

speak your mind;

If there is something;

holding you back;

don't hold back;

If there is something;

stopping you;

just go;

I will be there;

when you require;

I will stay;

if you desire;

I will let go;

if you aspire to fly away;

I will be still there....when you require..

When the weather is bad;

I will come to you;

When the weather is good;

You come to me...

Sunday, August 16, 2020

Its hard for me...

Its hard for me;
to forget you;
to give up;
on all those dreams;
on all the fun times;

Its hard for me;
to not miss you; 
to not see;
the smile on your face;
the warmth in your eyes;

Its hard for me;
to hate you;
to hate;
the way you look at me;
the way you make me feel;

Its hard for me;
to love you;
to love;
your trust in me;
my reliance on you;
 
Its hard for me;
to forget you;
deep in my heart;
in a desolate corner;
I will always remember......you......

 
 


Monday, August 3, 2020

The way of the world

Hmmm Hmm Hmmm
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
suppressing feelings
for the thought of the world
is not what you should follow
 
cry when the eyes tear up
smile when the thoughts clear up
feelings are not to be gobbled up
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
suppressing feelings
for the short lived goal
is not what you should follow
 
scream when anger heats up
laugh when happiness bubbles up
love het is not to be locked up
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
pleasing false gods
for the claps of the world
is not what you should follow
 
clear up your head
leave of your dress
be born again
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
for the material world
grasping the fleeting dreams
is not what you should follow
 
before the time slips by
never know when its time
saying goodbye
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
for the material world
loosing the way in rat race
is not what you should follow
 
living behind a legacy
or a fond memory
for a loved one to love
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
for the glimpse of fame
trampling over the hundred dreams
is not what you should follow
 
be sad when sad
be happy when happy
be true to true self
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
looks wont last
cling to false bonds
is not what you should follow
 
the time shall pass
tears shall run dry
but true love shall last
 
The way of world
is not what you should follow
suppressing feelings
for the thought of the world
is not what you should follow
 
hmmmm ...hmm..hmmmm

Sunday, July 26, 2020

Beyond the Grave....

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
I don't know what I miss;
but something's amiss;

The darker than dark among the Shadows;
Lurking among my half imaginations;
amusing hallucinations;
scarily reassuring;
spreading warmth from the cold corner;

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
I don't know what I miss;
but something's amiss;

Watching over me;
The God over my lonely soul;
being my unseen company;
unaware in bliss;
ending my loneliness;

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
I don't know what I miss;
but something's amiss;

Blood curdling screams;
the unwanted scenes;
silent killing of dreams;
worldly possessions, obsessions;
anchoring me to life;

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
I don't know what I miss;
but something's amiss;

The allure to reach out;
the blur beyond the grey;
the creak covered in creeps;
the mist surrounding, making the grim scene;
blocking my reach;

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
I don't know what I miss;
but something's amiss;

My Love from the grey;
beyond the grave;
long and far away;
someday;
I will live out my stay and........meet you beyond the grave...

Sunday, July 12, 2020

Dhua Dhua...

Har pal ajeeb sa yehsas hain
jaise kahin kabhi kuch paas tha
kuch dundhla sa yaad hain
kuch ghum sa hain


Kuch Gam ki Baatien
kuch Numsi baatein
ye teri kuch harkatein
yunhi dil dukha jaatien hain


jaise phislti rait rokna chahu main
waise hi waqt bitta jata hain
bahetien mann ke saath
udta jata hun main


Bin wajah ki mulakatein
yunhi jhalakti palkien
ye teri kuch harkatein
yunhi dil dukha jaatein hain


bina uljhe uljhane wali baatein
tere saath hokar bhi na hone sa yehsaas
wo na hone sa yehsaas
har pal ajeeb sa yehsaas hain


dhua dhua sa main
bin wajud sa
ye kiski perchaiye talashta hun main
kis shikast ki raha takh raha hun main


Har pal ajeeb sa yehsas hain
kuch dundhla sa yaad hain
aakhir ab dhund hi hun main
na jaane ab kis shikast ka intejar hain.....






 

Monday, June 1, 2020

Love

Love you love you love you I love you
there is no other thing
no reason
strength in my knees
goes away with the dimples in your cheeks
the fluttering of my heart
with the very thought of you
the pause of thoughts
with the very scent of you

Love you love you love you I love you
there is no medical thing
no reason
nothing's wrong with me
just you being the focus of my life
the hope of my life
just your being being warmth of my life
the joy in my eyes
just you being in my thoughts

Love you love you love you I love you
there is no other being
no reason
if I am not the love of your life
I will be still there for you
if not in your heart
You will be still there in mine
if not in your thoughts
you will be there in my dreams

Love you love you love you I love you
there is no other way of being
no reason
if I were a plant
I want to be a loved flower in your garden
if an animal
I want to be the pet showered with your love
if I were to exist
I want to be an existence loved by you

Love you love you love you I love you
there is no other thing
no reason
Just love you love you love you;
I love you     
 

Monday, April 27, 2020

I miss you bro...

I close my eyes
to dream.

Here;
You are here
with me;
you are not gone;

I called you
talked for hours
its not the same;
your voice;
its still lingering;
your songs;
pjs;
Its not the same;
I can not;
I could not;
dream up;
the same;
as you would have;
said it;
as you would have;
imagined it;
I am not up;
to the mark.

There is no one;
here to play the games;
we played;
its not the same;
there are no horses;
made of cushions;
there are no swords;
made of coconut leafs;
there are no bowlers;
to bat against; 
there is none to play with;
the way we played;
There is no one...
I can not dream up
the same;

The carefree;
The one whose;
Heart ruled over head;
the unyielding;
the one who
won hearts;
friends across borders;
friends across generations;
friends without seeing you once;
your legacy is unmatched;
I miss you bro.

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Bas Kuch Pal...


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

Wo Sunehri roshni aani baki hain;

Ye raat dhalni baki hain;

Aur kaafi waqt baki hain;

Kahin duurrr wo muskurahat chooni baki hain;

Ye ek Milne ki aas baki hain;

Aur kaafi baatein baki hain;


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

Wo talab si baki hain;

Aakhir ye ek tadap si baki hain;

mujhme kaafi teri chaaha baki hain;

kisi manjil par meri shaurat bhi baki hain;

Aakhir wo khwaish bhi baki hain;

Aur kai karwate baki hain;


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

Abhi hasil hi kya hain;

jo ye zindagi puri ho jaye;

abhi ek saas toh baki hain;

Wo aakhri ek ladai;

abhi mujhme baki hain;

aadhuri si ek zindagi abhi baki hain;


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

Abhi aasun na chalka;

jo ye ek zindagi puri kahelay;

kahani abhi bhi baki hain;

tera chalna manjil ki aur;

abhi baki hain;

Aakhir main tujhme abhi baki hu;


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

haar jeet toh lagi rahegi;

duniya toh waise bhi chalti rahegi;

tum muskurana aise hi;

mere bina bhi;

mera us muskurahat ko chuna abhi baki hain;

aakhir main tujhme abhi baki hu;


Abhi toh bas kuch pal hi biten hain;

Mere bas kuch kal hi biten hain;

Wo kuch baatein abhi baki hain;

Ye raat dhalni abhi baki hain;



Sunday, April 29, 2012

Celeb teachings!

 When I was first told that you can learn from all and sundry, I was quite sceptical, specially the sundry part; but now after joining the banking industry I have learnt that sundry is a very important account, specially when it comes to banking and more importantly the life.

So I took upon a list of things that one can learn from people:

1. SRK: One can learn, how not to talk about subjects which you are not really well versed with; don’t believe me, look at him, he is in far lesser controversies than before.

2. Nirmal Baba: People will listen to any crap advice, and will follow them, if you charge them 10% of their salary. Disappointed smile

3. Paris Hilton: If you have the looks, no matter what you do, you will be missed, so do spend some extra time in gym & some money on the looks, + look good on whatever you are doing, you might be facing camera, who knows!

4. Abishekh Manu Singhvi: Pay & treat your driver(key men) well, they wont have any reason to put your dirty laundry to dry in public.

5. Barak Obama: Get what you could till you can, you may not get a second term. That Nobel prize is quite a thing you know.

6. Shahid Kapoor: Break up can be a blessing in disguise. Don’t hide in your room, meet new people. Winking smile

7. Saif Ali Khan: Hook up may not always be a blessing.

8. Bejan Daruwala: Well, I was told 7 is lucky for me, so I am stopping here. Hope you gain something too! Smile with tongue out

9. Shashi Tharoor: Don't comment on something, using phrases which do not match up with local sensibilities, you might have to give up your elite position and join the cattle club. 

10. N D Tiwari: You are as young as you make your body feel. 


Thursday, April 5, 2012

Just wind; river and moon!


In a small town;
in the country side;
after dark;
after sleep has taken its toll;
In the silence of the night;
by the dark window;
sits a young widow;
with a twinkle in her eye;
calling out to the stars;
with her soothing smile;
looking up to the sky;
as her hair;
take to the air;
a serene beauty;
she does not object;
she does not
run a finger through them;
she closes her eyes;
lets the gentle wind;
feels the breeze;
livening up her smile.
I seat in shadow;
of a tree;
bewitched;
fixed in my gaze;
she served me all morning;
and never did I
see the person;
behind those rough hands;
rough by her karma;
the mundane house work;
fourteen hours behind curtains;
the unbreakable prison;
the invisible chains;
the prison of clothes;
the chains of traditions;
slave by day;
night is hers;
freedom she seeks;
freedom to feel;
just nature;
no lust;
no love;
just wind, river and moon!
that’s all;
what made her smile;
her smile!
Dancing in moon light;
singing all alone
to herself;
till the crack of dawn;
she smiled away;
and then
the prison;
the chains;
recaptured her;
resting her spirit;
she went on working;
working all the day;
serving;
not uttering a word;
that sweet voice;
was lost by day;
I
nor the hero;
neither the villain;
but a mere spectator;
each night;
each day;
and the days to come
and nights to come……..
Just wind; river and moon!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Hey Lady!

Hey lady!

One with

deep brown eyes;

dancing steps;

Will you be my Valentine?

Hey lady!

One with

cream touch;

singing lips;

Will you hold my hand?

Hey lady!

One with

flowing hair;

uncertain mind;

Will you be mine?

Hey lady!

One with

rosy cheeks;

embarrassed face;

Will you embrace me?

Hey lady!

One with

my heart;

of her own mind;

Will you marry me?

Hey lady!

One with;

my name;

smell of a fresh shower;

Will you walk along with me?

Hey lady!

One with;

me;

graceful ways;

Will you be my Valentine- forever?

Sunday, January 29, 2012

The End!

Is it end of the world?
or is it,
Just me?
That song,
the song,
that made our hearts cry,
with joy,
is being played again
There is no feeling
this time.
Was it you?
The first time,
and I joined in?
Or is it?
Just me?
This time
playing in the rain,
this time
crest fallen in the downpour
I cant hear a thing
other than
the song
what is he saying?
A gun in hand,
its pointed
at me.
Why?
Numbness.
Its not a dream,
It can’t be shaken away
He is smiling
unlike you
yours was
the one to die for
Why am I not with you?
When was last time?
I saw your face?
not this morning
not yesterday
at dinner
I was with you
but not with you
its been a long time
I have been running
running a race
is it time?
Time to lose?
Have I lost you?
have lost the time
I should have been with you
Where am I?
Is this our bed?
No, this seems harder,
rougher,
on the edge
of something
something grey
and
dry brown!
I am moving,
rolling over,
Is he kicking me?
Yes,
He is,
That grass
looks greener
on other side
other side of street
We picnicked once there
It was so much fun
It is,
When did it all start?
When did it all went wrong?
When did I make a false move?
I had not planned to be here
We had not dreamed this
Is it the end
Can’t I go back
He is pointing the gun
again
at me,
my eye
Fire!
Aaaaaaahhhhh
Here you are,
besides me,
I am all wet,
Was it?
Just a dream?
Then,
Why is there a bullet in my hand?

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Dosti

Na kuch tumne kahan,
na kuch humne kahan,
buss chupki liye hum,
zindagi bitate chale gaye,
tum apne karmose,
hum apne karmose jujte chale gaye,
kabhi hum dost the,
aaj bhi hain;
par dosti kahin gum hain,
kisi mod pe,
takrayenge kabhi hum,
toh kya pehchan hogi
ek duge ki?
na jane,
kaise
ajnabi
ban jayenge
jigri dost bhi
yun kabhi.......
ek shabdh, ek awaz
ek pal ki duri na thi kabhi
phir kya pata
ek pal bhi dekhenge
ek dujhe ko bhi
Na kuch tumne kahan,
na kuch humne kahan,
samay ki duri hai
mushkil badi
hath mile
par
kya dil milenge abhi
kya wo halki si muskan
banegi tahako ki hassi
chutkiyo main plan honge 
kya phir kabhi?
bin bole
kya samjhenge 
wo baat unkahee?
ya phir
busss yunh hi
bhul jayenge
wo sath bitaye 
pal sabhi
ya phir koi banayenge
yadgar koi?
Na kuch tumne kahan,
na kuch humne kahan,

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Perceptitude!


Raj was getting bored, rather was missing his girl friend, still in stage when he would miss her all the time, when she was not there. It was still early in love.

Out of nothing else could be done unless he hears her sweet voice, he calls her.

Triiiiiinnnnngggg Triiiiinnnnnnnggggg…….

She did not pick the 1st call up and Raj was just able to sit in his bed and hear all the 13 rings ring in vain.
Raj: “Why is she not picking up the damn phone?”

With greater resolve to get through this time, he calls her up again.

Triiiiiinnnnngggg Triiiiinnnnnnnggggg…….

Again 12 rings go by, and as the time nears for the 13th and the last ring, a drop of sweat dribbles down Raj’s forehead, he contemplates on giving up, and then with new found determination from depths of his love, for her, he wills the phone to be picked up.

And……..she picks up the phone, and …….keeps the receiver down on the side.

Raj is devastated.

Raj: “Helloo! Hellow!!!”

No answer.

Raj: “Helloo!!!”

Click…….phone goes to engage tone.

Raj: “She, my beloved Ritu; does not want to speak with me any more, she does not want to be with me any more, she is breaking up! She is dumping me! Why! Why does this happens only with me? Only me!”

No, she is not that kind of girl, Ritu is not like Ritika, she is not the kind of girl who would leave me. Is she? One more time….I will try calling her 1 more time.

Engage tone.

Raj is devastated, storms out of the room and as is not able to think clearly, as always turns to his best friend to drown out all sorrow. He makes it for the strongest beer available near his place. And sooner than ever he is down for the count, his senses have gone.

Raj: “What am I supposed to do! My life is over, I can not live without her! It’s all Rahul’s fault, he offered her chocolate, din’t he! So she has fallen for him! I should have beaten him up, before, but its not that late now! Rahul get ready, I am coming.”

Stumbles out of his seat, and somehow reaches the society where Rahul stays.

Raj: Shouts at top of his voice “Rahul! You f**king d**k! Come out, I am going to hit you!”

Rahul the hot headed macho man comes out and one punch does it, Raj is cold out for hours, transported back to his room by his friends, who are quite puzzled by his behaviour.

After about 3 or 4 hours, in middle of night, Raj wakes up with a head ache, partly due to hang over and partly due to punch to head. And as he tries to make sense of it all, some part of the night comes back to him.

Raj: “Why am I alive? I should be dead! I can not live without Ritu and neither can I fight for her! I should be dead! It is time to end this misery!”

Raj stands in his gallery, looking over the night lights of his city, and remembers one of his Sir’s words

“Life can look ironically beautiful when you are at the end of it.”

And decides to make one last call, call to his Sir.
Triiiiiinnnnnngggggg……

In middle of night, rather approaching dawn, phone is picked up in 1st ring.

Sir: “Is this the time to call! Are you in right sense of your mind? By the way, who are you?”

Raj: “I am Raj, Sir. And I am committing suicide.”

Sir: “Why?” So he is really not in right sense of his mind.

Raj: “Ritu has dumped me, she is not picking up my calls, I can’t live without her.”

Sir: “Hmmm….. I Will try and talk to her, put your suicide on hold till I call you back. Is it ok?”

Raj: Like a person who has given up hope. “Ok.”

Sir thinks for a minute and calls up Raj’s friend, and directs him to check on Raj, and do anything that is possible to get him to safety.

Next call to Ritu…

Trrriiinnnggggg…….

The call is picked up even before the 1st ring has completed 1/4th of its normal duration.

Ritu: “Hi Raj, My parents are here could not talk to you in evening, cant meet you tomorrow, please bear with me.”

Sir: “Ritu; I am not Raj, but that fool is going to commit suicide right now, thinking you have dumped him. Please call him.”

Ritu: “Sir; Sorry Sir!”

Sir: “Will you be able to call him?”

Ritu: “I am not sure!”

Sir: “Ok.”

1st thing Ritu does is calls Raj up, and tells him….

Ritu: “I am not dumping you, I love you, my parents are here, talk to Sir.”

Then sir’s call comes in.

Sir: “Raj; did you get Ritu’s call?”

Raj: “Yes, sir! Sorry Sir!”

Sir: “Did you understand what happened?”

Raj: “No Sir, but Ritu loves me!”

Sir: So fool stopped listening after the love part! Sigh! “Ok! That is good, but listen carefully now, are you there?”

Raj: “Yes Sir!”

Sir: “Ritu’s parents are here, they are staying with her, so no call’s or meeting her till few days. Ok? Did you understand?”

Raj: “Yes Sir!”

Sir: “What did I say?”

Raj: “No calling Ritu, no meeting her, till her parents go.”

Sir: Phew! “Ok! Now give phone to Rahul.”

Raj gives phone to Rahul.

Rahul: “Yes Sir?”

Sir: “Stay with the fool, in-case he tries anything foolish, like climbing her compound gate.”

Rahul: “Yes Sir.”

Raj is finally asleep, with an unproductive day added to his long list of unproductive days.

Moral: Do not assume situation you are in, based on your past experience alone.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Hero!

He was a Hero;

of this era;

I would have liked to be;

Irony

He always said;

be yourself

follow your heart!

He brought life

to his

Dream!

Took it to highs!

Only to be

Snatched!

From him

He kept on fighting;

never ever

did he gave up!

Springed back!

Stronger!

When ever

His critics;

His enemies;

wrote him off!

For he had;

Passion!

Grit!

&

Pulse!

To keep going!

Without him;

his dream stumbled;

Without his dream;

he stumbled;

Until;

they were united;

To Take on the world!

To change the world!

To live behind;

a legacy!

Unchallenged!

In its time.

Disowned at birth;

loved by billions in life;

February 24, 1955 – October 5, 2011.

Steve Jobs & his Apple.

I have hated Apple company for evicting Steve in first place, and when he got back I have not liked it’s product for putting a price tag on all the things other than the instrument it self. But still, Steve & his Apple did shape the tech world and its path from Windows to Android, all followed what Steve’s vision! In end, it looked liked he knew long back, that it was his time, handing over reins of his dream, in real sense was hint enough. Salute to him.   

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Little Crush!

Sweet nothings,
sweet pains!
When there is nothing,
just some warmth
in Heart,
when
eyes fall on
someone who seems
apart!
Apart from others,
a part of you
who brings
unknown smile
to your face!
Just a look
is enough
to make your day!
Unfazed you stay
then whatever may come by!
That face
keeps you going
for no reason why?
It is just
a little crush
nothing else
but
that is all it takes
to make you smile
these days!
At first
it is by chance
you get to see
that face
but slowly
you start timing
your trips
not missing
a single chance
that
may come by!
Why should you?
If it makes you
as happy as
a Butterfly!
It is
just a little
Crush!
Just Enjoy!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Moments I should have had…….

Everyone falls in love some or the other time and everyone has some notions about what would they do in a certain situation, when they are with someone special. I too had my notions about certain situations, and as most know I had a love marriage, some came true and some dint; no regrets, but given a chance to go back, I would like to include them in my life experiences, some such situations, and why they did not get fulfilled are:

1. The girl I secretly love rests her head on my shoulder and sleeps while travelling in a bus, and in order to not wake her up, I travel to the end of line along with her and then we end up spending whole day together, while missing few lectures.

I started using bike for daily travel in 8th standard, almost never travelled by bus there after!

2. Hide that we love each other from our friends for few days and make up stories to avoid going out with group and getting lost together, more often than tolerable by group, as a result, arousing suspicions among group members.

My group knew before us, that we were in love!

3. Kissing on a railway platform!

Not possible, it is India dude! You may get booked on even if you are married,for you hugged your woman little longer than a natural wink, let alone girlfriend.

4. Spending a night outside in wilderness, just counting stars, and talking, no sleep.

I went to Dang district in Gujarat to fulfil this dream, twice and ended up sick both times, putting an end to my love for camping; also they separated girls tent area from boys, no chance to sneak out.

5. Getting drenched in rain and using fire to dry both of us in a cave….etc.

It is hard to find cave in city, besides I have sinusitis which catches on pretty fast if I get drenched.

6. Playing a lead role in a romantic drama and making the lead actress fall in love with me.

I auditioned, they selected me to carry props from dressing room to stage and back.

7. Run away with my love interest.

Our parents agreed without much protest.

8. To propose her at some exotic place, where no one else is there except for the splendid beauty of mother nature.

I never proposed! Till I was already married that is.

9. To waltz my way to her heart. That is, dance!

I have two left feet, an immovable / inflexible waist and no sense of rhythm. Plus, it would not have been a surprise if I had taken her for the dance class, and I did not find any other partners.

10. To have bed of flower in a garden and play in it.

Jetendra Movies are known to exaggerate, such things are expensive and may contain ants, so not meant for sleeping!

You too must have had a similar list, or may still have, if feel like, do share below!